ok so lets continue on from my lasr post shall we.

about the whole perents thing... thats still a mess, but, as things go, its bearable most of the time. nothing seems to be happening about the whole seperating thing and that gets a bit annoying, not knowing what is going on.

ok so next thing... the whole boy business... THAT was a complete disaster... he didnt like me and well after my birthday he just stopped talking to me altogether. which was upsetting, but i got over it, as you do. but strangly, the whole time i was with that boy, i kept thinking that i wished he was someone else.

so fell for someone else. and couldn't get them off my mind. so i decided to hook up with them on camp....

went on school camp... and hooked up with my friend Liam... that was an interesting bus trip. he asked me out. which i might add i was really happy about.

we've been going out for 5 months now, and i couldnt imagine life without him anymore. i love him so much, and he makes me so happy. he's all i dreamed about and more. wow that sounds super corny but oh well... i doubt you care.

end of year 10 was a relief.. now on to horrible year 11, VCE. im shiting myself about it all, but im hoping it will turn out ok.

chirstmas and new years were fairly quiet. not much going on....

went camping with family and Liam.. went better then i expected it to go. mum actually likes him. and for her thats a first....

well i think ive gotten everything off my chest.... wow this is a long entry... welol until i remember to right in this again.. ciao!!!

XoXo

Ok so let's see, the last time I posted an entry I was pretty mixed up. Not much has changed really. But some things are getting better at least.

It's not unbearable at home, although sometimes it feels like it. Mother and Father are still fighting, and are still seperating, but I'm starting to get used to the idea a little.

But not everything is bad. I met a boy, he's so nice and really sweet. I think i may like him alot. He he. He makes me blush, and he makes me feel special, and loved.

That's about it really.

Till next time

xx

Shell

hmm ok well i havnt seen this thing in a while thats for sure... well lets see whats been happening in my life... well i dunno really...

parents are splitting up... which i am really sad about... i keep trying to blame one of them, but that doesnt help because it just makes me feel worse. like im picking sides. in these situations i dont think you can blame anybody, becausde not just one person is at fault. its making me feel horrible, and im having a hard time coping and adjusting to everything. its kind of all in limbo at the moment. mum is sleeping in another room and is really disconected with us. and well dad, he's trying to put things back together but its just a little too late to do anything to fix it. that shit has been and gone, a long time ago.

I didnt go to school on wednesday. even though this is only the first week back.
i guess i couldn't handle it. i had some home work to do and i was so stressed about it and with what going on at home i guess my mind just broke down. i just couldnt seem to face the world. i told mum about it, she wasnt very happy about it. she seemsed a bit concerned, but not enough to try and do anything about it.

jess' party next weekend. which is going to be awesome! something fun to do to keep my mind off things. im going as a can-can dancer from moulan rouge. its a really cool costume, i like it. pitty om going to have to take it back. i would love to keep it but i dont think the people at the costume shop would let me. haha

hey im doing a play!! its for theatre studies. its called Medea, its an ancient greek play. its really interesting actually. im really liking it. it takes my mind off things. the horse riding used to do. its good to be able to just completely block everything out except for what your meant to be doing.

well i think ive rambled on her for long enough, but its not like anyone is actually going to read this thing. i dont think many people use this site anymore. oh well

signing off

shell bell

Oh how life is grand!!!

I feel on top of the world at the moment! Guess who has a lovely boyfriend!
You guessed it, ME!!

He is wonderful. he makes me so happy, and he's so sweet and nice and iv'e never felt this kind of feeling before.

It's strange but also very, very good!

Life is great. Everything seems to be perfect. New boyfriend, chirstmas hols coming up, awsome parties, awsome friends!

Life really couldn't get that much better....Unless mum and dad decided to buy me my very own horse!! But thats not going to happen.

Ah well life is fantastic!

peace out!

not really a good day today, well so far anyway.

so here's how it all went down so far....

got up at 9.19am after forgetting to set mmy alarm the night before... =|

got in the shower, washed, dried and got dressed for horse riding.
went down stairs watched tv, almost forgot what the time was, saw the time was 10.14am made toast for breakfast, then got hurried out the door by mum because we were going to be late. because of the rushing i forgot to get my drink bottle... =|

got to horse riding, had so much fun! but had to ride next to jester....little kid that so doesnt know how to control the horse he is normaly riding.

riding class finished, hoped off horse and horse stood on my fucking foot, squashing my right big toe. not cool jettie boy!!

after that i put the stupid horse in the stupid stable, where i took off his briddle, and he swung round to eat the stupid food that was in the food bin thingy. then i turned to leave and the fucking horse kicks my in the back of m fucking thigh. i could have killed him, but unfortunatly i was in a fair bit of pain, and a bit of shock too.

got out of the stable as quick as i could.... my riding teacher said i was lucky i was so close to the horse, she said if i was a bit further away he would have got more force behind his stupid foot and he would have knocked me to the ground and i could have possibly broken my leg. so not cool!!

well i guess bad things always come in 3's. or 7's, god i hope its not 7's. i hate having bad luck, it hurts.

the last time bad luck struck me, i ended up in hospital from a bike crash, a big fat lump on my head the following week and it all ended with me geting a cold....

how annoying..... as i said. i hate bad luck.

i hope its over now though, as i have party to go to tonight and dont want bad luck messing everything up.

well best be off, must get ready.

what makes me unique is that i am me.

there is no one in the world quite like me.....

no one with the same personality, or looks, or anyone who thinks quite the same way i do.

no one in the world believes in things like me, no one in the world acts the same way i do around friends and family.

sure some people may come close to a few of these thigs but only I have all of these qualities.

Thats what makes me, well me.

fucking hell life really sucks right now...

i need some cheering up

= (

i feel so sad, and lonely and my parents arn't really making me feel any better.

they're actually making me feel even more shity then i already am.

*sigh*

i guess this is life then huh.

Why does life have to be so darn complicated??

Life is really annoying me with its complicated-ness. Why cant everything happen just like a fairy tale?

If you like someone and someone likes you, you go out....not fucking pussy foot around eachother all the time...

Man.....

I guess I'm just a little upset because it seems like one of my friends is having a hard time, and I feel like I havn't been there like I used too, when they where at the same school. I wish I knew what was wrong. Then I could help. I miss this person like crazy and kind of feel a bit helpless because I don't know whats bothering them....

I wish i knew what was going on in people's heads, that would make things less confusing....

maybe

*sigh*

Silly life and all it's problems!

just something i wrote for english..... i got a pretty good mark on it so I'm happy. just thought i'd put it on here....

( Roses in Winter )

Taken from my bed,
In the middle of the night.
Led downstairs,
Not a light on in sight.

His hands take mine;
They are so cold and firm.
He leads me away,
I struggle and squirm.

He opens a door,
And shoves me inside.
I’m scared and confused,
I feel I must hide.

He takes off my dress,
Tears rolling down from my eyes.
He forces himself onto me,
To proclaim his prize.

A sharp pain goes through me,
Blood trickles down my leg.
I try to break free,
But he has me pegged.

When he is done,
He takes me back to my bed.
I feel so ashamed,
It’s all my fault,
That’s what he said.

Title: The Old Woman And I
Rating: G
POV:1st person
Disclaimer: I don't actually know what to put in here

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Title: Midnight
Rating:PG
POV: 1st Person
Disclaimer: Always stay true to your loved ones

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Hello, hello I just thought I should say Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!! Right now I have my cousins over. It's the best because we all get along really well, most of the time. This Christmas the family gathering is at my place and as usual Josh and Aaron are playing up and fighting all over the house. Right now it's Aaron, Josh, Nathan, Rebecca, Katherine and I up stairs listening to music and talking.

So that's all I wanted to say really. Just thought you all should know.

How was your Christmas???? i would love to hear about it =D


Michelle xoxo

Life is wonderful!!!

well at the moment anyway.

i have a wonderful boyfriend, my parents arn't fighting and yelling at me or my sister, it is 9 days till Christmas, i have two new beautiful kittens that are the cuttest things you will ever see, and i have the most wonderful friends a person could ever want. Life at the moment is almost perfect.

So why do i feel so lonely and sad???

Latley I've been havng this strange feeling that something is going to go wrong. It's upsetting me because I'm meant to be happy, i want to be happy but this feeling deep inside me is spoiling it all.

What could i do to make this horrible thing go away, i hate it being here, inside my head all the time, it's all i can think about and it's driving me crazy.

OK. Well this is just some crazy shit I made up before. I had to write down heaps of random words and place them in a story.

Title: English crap
Rating: PG
POV: 1st person
Disclaimer: Horror may scare some readers.

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Title: Somebody can make a difference
Rating: PG (Adult themes)
POV: 1st person
Disclaimer: Family violence may offend some readers.

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Just a little something about me.

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